: the physical feeling caused by disease, injury, or something that hurts the body
: mental or emotional suffering : sadness caused by some emotional or mental problem
: someone or something that causes trouble or makes you feel annoyed or angry
So today i went to see my dad at the hospital...they have not found any infection in his (diabetic) 1/2 of his foot. his foot is ugly. missing all five of his toes and then a little of the foot...now his 'special shoe' has rubbed the top of his foot raw, (he has no feeling) with some bones poking thru and a couple of holes not wanting to heal up and close. pusy...(gross), but we ask him over and over, "How are you doing dad?" "oh i'm ok, doing good..." so he struggles at night with chills and fevers, and pain...WHAT NEXT?!!?
So his wife of 55 years, and my mother, passed this past october. I know he has not really grieved his loss...my heart hurts for him, and I try not to be in the "Care-Taker" mode, as one of my 'fruit, a Peach actually,' from the county jail calls it...I just want to be his daughter and not behave like i am taking away his independance. The more we say he needs help, the more he fights us...He wouldn't let us take care of our mother either...he wanted to do it cause it was His Wife...so she struggled, and i know he reacted in the only way he has always done when he is afraid...to attack in anger...My poor ole dad...he is 70 yrs. Still young. mother was 71.
The time they amputated his toes was about four years ago, and the time before that for a couple of his other toes, was almost a year or so before that...oh the struggles of health...the time before that congestive heart failure, kidney failure, liver disease, high blood pressure...on top of being a very STRICT EUROPEAN HISPANIC...lol.
So tonight they would insert a huge needle and drain some liquid from his foot and test that for infection...Sand down the bone poking thru...if it gets into the bone (infection), then they chop some more of it off...HANG ON FOR DEAR LIFE!!!!!